ordeal of CAT 2

if preparation for CAT was an ordeal in itself, attending mocktests was another hurdle .. I pressed the panic button when i appeared for my very first mocktest. I was just not ready for CAT. During the course of my preparation, i read all the material i could lay my hands on. I judiciously kept a track of my reading speed and the genre of the material read. I just crammed my brain with all the seemingly mundane details which i would have happily ignored otherwise. I was supposed to transform into " Miss Know It All" by the time i'm through with my preparation.. It was almost a herculean task to think logically and analytically all the time.. It was just not my nature...i was in reality an impulsive person...
All my misgivings could not postpone CAT and before i knew it the D-day arrived. Thinking back i realise i was surpringly quite cool on that day..i just attempted what i know and after checking out the key i was a tad dissapointed that i could not clear the supposed cut-off mark in quant.. there went my dream of getting into an IIM down the drain... by this time my last semester had started and i was busy with my final project... i was blissfully unaware of the fact that the results were announced, till a friend called up to enquire... i was glad that i managed to secure 90.69 percentile...
now that the ordeal of CAT was finally behind me, i was waiting for the calls from the institutes that i applied... it was therefore a terrible shock when the first rejection came.. i was hurt, angry and terribly disappointed... it was a serious blow to my confidence.... it took me a while to get over it.. then atlast i got the much awaited call from TAPMI... my next stage of preparation began....
If preparing for cat was tough in itself... i had to struggle in the next stage... the gd sessions were taxing... it was tough for me b'coz i prefer to listen than speak... i had a real tough time.. also it took me some time to take the moderators comments in an impersonal way... the topics discussed were fun... in all acyuality they actuaaly expanded my horizons of thinking... i, for the first time had the experience of looking at a thing in different perspectives.... of meeting people with different personalities.. it was an eye opener... i was ready at last to give my shot at the actual gd process at TAPMI...