Chronicles Of a Bride Part 1

One fine day thunder cracked….. lighting flashed……. God appeared before me and said, “ Balikee…. Its high time u got married…… lo behold this is ur future husband” and just like that my whole world turned topsy turvy. Now I am one of the frenzied brides in the making.

How do I describe how I feel right now? Am I in absolute ecstasy? Am I confused? Am I terrified? Am I wondrously happy? I am currently drinking a cocktail of all these feelings. While it did take me time to wrap my head around the concept that I finally found my soul mate, its yet to sink in that I am no longer single. I now have someone who will hold my hand in all those sunset n moon lit night walks….who will now lend me a shoulder to lean my head on whenever I am tired of life…. I now have someone who will vow to love me till forever…. Who will now be there by my side to share with me every second of my life…. For whom I will be the world….and who for me will be my world….. phew…. What a thought….

In all these gushy romantic feelings… there is still this uncertainty…. This confusion…. How do I get to know him….how do I understand him….. how do I know when to draw a line…. When to push? How do I let go of a life long habit of holding back and trust this person implicitly and completely…. To share with him my deepest fears….. my long locked away hopes and dreams… and still be assured that he will be there holding my hand….. and never let go? How do I switch off the conditioning of handling things on my own… and turn to him for help? After I life of a lot of what if’s how I do I take the plunge and be just me? And how did just after meeting him… he suddenly became the centre of my world? Like that missing piece of puzzle that suddenly completes my life? Like the world is now a better and much beautiful place because he is now here by my side. Lots of things… lots of thoughts going on in my head….

Then in all due wisdom… my roomie gives me this gyan…. “Relationships are like wine…. The more the time passes…. The better it tastes”. Let me hold my thoughts on this note :P