Lament of a secondary citizen

Not long ago, I believed that I would dictate the terms, that I would decide what is it that I want in life and that I will charter the course of my life my way. There was no second guessing here. All I ever wanted to do was to hold life by neck and steer my path to blazing glory. Maybe I am being a triffle too over the top. But then that is what I honestly believed, till reality choose to crash itself and give a rather rude awakening.

Centuries have passed by, every once in a while some one would exhault the divine feminine, that it was the female of the species which was stronger, and that the so called perfect balance in life can be found only when both the male and female exist in perfect harmony as equals. Oh! How I would marvel at the thought. Being a female I know for sure that I am more than capable of holding my own in any given field I choose. I know for sure that I am second to none. But then it depresses me that in this present day world where we are progressing at mind boggling rates, where change seems to be the way of life, I still am considered a secondary citizen.

It hurts to know that all that I struggled for with such passion and zeal can be so trivial to many. It is not out of ordinary, someone had the nerve to say. It would never matter that I share the same qualification as many of those so called superior species, that I work in an reputed organisation and have a career to boast about. It wont change the fact I am quite good at what I do and that I dream of conquering loftier peaks in the near future and take my best shot at changing what I feel needs to change. It is sickening to know that no matter how superior you are intellectually, you are judged by your looks alone.

I may have the brains of Einstein, but if don’t have the sultry looks of some darn seductress, I am considered nothing. I was appalled by the irony of it. I am supposed to be picture perfect with brains to boot, to match up to some pathetic creature, mind you with almost the same qualification as me and earning on par with me. I feel sorry for those stuck in this quagmire. And I am definitely ANGRY for being subjected to this humiliation. Which sane person would accept it?? All my knowledge and self worth would be mockery, if I willingly subjected myself to this indignity without even putting up a fight.

And the irony of it, I never once regretted the fact that I was a female. I was never given a chance to nurse such regret. When faced with any such indignity, I made sure to trample that person underfoot for ever doubting my ability. But now I regret being born a female. I regret being in the place where no matter how progressive the society claims itself to be, no matter how broad minded But now I regret being born a female. I regret being in the place where no matter how progressive the society claims itself to be, no matter how broad minded certain intellectuals are, you are still denied certain basic rights. You are still trampled upon and expected to surrender meekly without a fight. You are still expected to be one to compromise on things, and to be the one to surrender.

I may sound like a FCS, but then I care two hoots about people think when it comes to my individuality. An individual I am, an independent one at that and I know for sure that I will fight tooth and nail if I am ever to be subjected to such indignities. All said and done, I wait in bated in breath for that real change to happen where I am not a secondary citizen anymore, where all’s well in God’s world with real harmony amongst people.